It’s inexplicable. I seriously am a person who has anxiety only when manic, depressed, or under truly pressing stress. Otherwise I am generally anxiety free. Even my t would tell you that.

Today I was w/my t and my anxiety hit about a 10. I told her I wanted to curl up in a ball on the floor and that I wanted to cry. We talked about it, did quite a bit of havening but I left with quite a bit of anxiety. We discussed the fact that leaving her office 2 weeks ago is when I first felt panic that was the first visual symptom of mania so maybe that caused the anxiety. But, I’ve still had loads of it. And I’ve had it a lot lately. And, (si trigger) I don’t want to tell my husband. Should I call my pdoc tomorrow? She’s out of the office again this week and won’t be back until Monday. Should I schedule an emergency appointment for when she gets back? I can take klonapin. Should I? Did I just think I was better and really am not? I’m not sure. At least I am sleeping. Someone please help me because my stomach is in knots and I just don’t know how much more I can take right now. I hope tomorrow will be better. I am about to turn on some music and try to sleep.