Thank you for responding so quickly. My mind is not sharp right now. Maybe dysphoria? It’s likely the tears are anxiety but I rarely cry unless I’m very, very depressed and I feel like I could ugly cry. I seriously don’t know of a time when this uncontrolllable, painful anxiety didn’t accompany something. Have you ever wanted to be in your t or pdoc arms? Like just have them hold you? I realize that may not be normal but that is exactly how I am feeling. I wish I was with one of them right now.