I too worry about the what ifs constantly. I worry about both present and past. I have been told just to keep busy and this has worked as a temporary fix for me. I someimes get so involved in things that I will actually "forget" to worry for hours at a time. Doesn't seem like much, but those worry free hours are great.

I take Trazodone which is mainly supposed to help me sleep and it works well. It has no other side effects that I can tell. It is helping with my OCD as well. It's taken a few weeks but it's a start. Are you taking meds?

I am finding that just talking to others with the same problems is helping, so feel free to talk away!