I'm so sorry, seeker33 Maybe the problem isn't you, maybe you just need to find the right people? I understand the frustration of living in a small town, perhaps there's some clubs or online chats you could join and try to see if there are people with interests similar to yours? I think the things you've mentioned are perfectly valid hobbies, you just need to find the right people. Don't give up your search! I hope you'll be able to find what you're looking for. I think you're perfectly fine the way you are, if you ask me. Perhaps you could try to find some new hobbies, but don't force yourself. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you