My current meds don't help with depression. I have very little chooses because I need ODT. I've gained 2 lbs a month for the past 4 yrs. I'm tired a lot. Sometimes like last night I wake up to uncontrollable muscle jerking in my right side. I take ambien when that happens. I have to remind myself to tell pdoc about it.

Now the good things: I'm no longer scared. My family is no longer scared. I'm less explosive and a better mood over all. My fake front is closer to my real emotions now.