I'm sorry you are continuing to struggle.  From what you wrote, it sounds as though you're doing a lot of things right.  Perhaps reaping the benefits of all this is simply a matter of continuing to do all you are doing for some additional time?  Here are links to 4 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that address the issue of depression & hopelessness:
A Real Dose of Hope When You're Feeling Hopeless
Depression and the Chinese Finger Trap
How I Fought My Depression and Found Inner Peace
My Journey to Wholeness: How I Learned to Embrace My Flaws to Create a Joyful Life
My best wishes to you... 
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