I've felt generally uncomfortable at all my sessions this week, so I apologize if this is all jumbled.

I sat down and he opened by saying "Wherever you want to start" which is totally different than what he usually starts with. I started off with telling him that I broke down and cried last night after an argument with my H. We basically spent the whole session talking about how I view crying and how I view getting angry. I told him that I raised my voice at H during our argument which usually means you've really upset me or I'm frustrated that I'm not being heard. We talked about how I don't like the terms crybaby or people telling kids that they'll give them something to cry about. How I can understand why a kid or other person is upset and crying but I'm harsh on myself. He brought up how I shut down the feeling very fast in therapy and how I feel like I have this wall up. I don't want to be too vulnerable and get hurt. He said something about how I can't just shut out one emotion, that instead I'm shutting out things like joy and excitement as well.
I did tell him how I pulled up to my kid's school yesterday and his T came up to my car with a post it note for me. On it was our local PDs number for SA reporting and a website for it. I told T that I looked up the website and got triggered by it. He asked why do I think my son's T gave me that information and I said because she was sticking her nose where it didn't belong and has all the answers. We didn't spend too much talking about that because I quickly changed the subject.
At the end he asked if I had anymore thoughts on coming 4x a week. I said I'm not sure how it would work with my Hs schedule since someone needs to watch our youngest even if the others are at school. T said figuring out a time is step 2, step 1 is saying yes or no to coming more often. He said that if we can't find a time that's opened he can move things around or wait until something opens that would fit my schedule. I responded by saying that I'm doing step 2 first before step 1 because I don't want to say yes if it won't work out. I'm not even sure how to talk to H about it and I think my T will definitely get sick of me if I'm going 4 days a week.

When time was up T told me that he will be out of the office one day during February one week and then be gone a whole week that same month. He asked if I wanted him to text me the dates so I could plan ahead and then said he'd see me Friday.
Eta: Comments are okay.