Hi Winterbaby,
You know sometimes I forget that when we come down to it, it is 2 people in the room, and for me it was 2 1/2 years, and we had a tremendous about about things in common, not just things, but the way of thinking about the world and stuff. I can't call him a total jerk, but he allowed his feelings about me to get in the way of being objective. And when he kept trying to rebuild those boundaries HE crossed, it hurt like hell.
I guess I am still angry and him getting in my face the other day, it was like, HOW DARE YOU. It took me 6 mo. of therapy to get over the loss of the relationship, and it makes me angry that he just come up to me casually and says Hi, like it is okay or something. I feel like I lost someone special in my life, and I grieved that loss a lot, and I am just not ready to be casual with him at the gym. I am guess I am not making a whole lot of sense here. But I feel angry he came into my life again. It makes me feel venerable to him again, and I don't like it.
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