I've been close friends with someone who was nice when I met him but as time went on he became insulting, hateful and exhibited bizzare behavior that I could never understand.

I guess as they say, I need to stop trying to make sense out of nonsense.

The problem is, somehow I fell in love with this loser and now I'm frustrated because it's affecting everything I do just to get over him. I've already put his personal ringer on silent when he calls. I've told him to loose my number...he called back 3 days later and I caved. I can't afford to cave anymore.

I want to get on with my life and have someone in it that is caring, compassionate and loving. I guess what I'm saying is that this grieving process is taking so long. I am forcing myself to get on with my life...doing my chores, shopping, even scheduling pleasant things to do each day (plesant things don't seem to be as pleasant when one is going through the grieving stage). Nighttime use to be a welcoming friend, now I take a sedative early and go to bed at 10:00.

I'm in a lot of pain and want the pain to end.

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