Thanks so much MickeyCheeky. I appreciate your kind words. Unfortunately, I don't live near any family so my support system IRL is pretty limited. I do have a boyfriend but I don't bring up how I'm feeling a lot because, honestly, it can swing dramatically sometimes and he just gets lost in it. I've had to teach myself to ask "Is this going to matter in 10 minutes? 10 hours? 10 months?" to determine if I'm overreacting to things.

I really struggle with obsessions. Is this normal? I become obsessed with concepts. Usually negative ones. Really small, insignificant things become these catastrophes. Particularly when I'm feeling more manic. I get hung up on ideas. Perseverate on them. And I struggle with paranoia in that respect too.

Now, granted, in discussions with my therapist we have uncovered quite a significant amount of insecurities that are driving these feelings, so I am hoping that may just be unrelated, but sometimes I know that how I'm acting is unreasonable but its like my body is on auto-pilot and I just can't stop myself from reacting to the trigger, whether its my boyfriend forgot to take out the trash, a scratch on my car, someone at work reprimanding me, etc.

Anyone else feel this way?