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My father, because he wanted us to be successful and not to suffer in life, has provided us with everything. I mean everything from food, to school tuition, that we didn't have to work one day in our life. I have found out that my father has high expectation because of this. He expected us to dress a certain way. Not to grow a beard, even if it's trimmed and look nice. Not to talk freely with anyone. Not to go anywhere you want. In other words, I feel my father wants my freedom in exchange for his providing, under the excuse that he wants me to be successful. He constantly criticized me on everything he didn't like. He still does. To me, this is a huge issue, because I value my freedom. I want to have my own life and not to be told what to do and say, or where to go.
In retrospect, I think his over-protection wasn't good for either of us. Now, I feel I am weak to live in a world full of hardships. We are not in good terms, and we barely speak. Am I ungrateful? Maybe, but money is not everything in life. Freedom and respect and love are more important, in my opinion. Of course, I would like to have a support system when I need it, but I would have preferred if he gave me less money, and more freedom to explore the world and develop my character.
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