Hello and welcome.

My first shrink was a firm believer in Adderall for bipolar 1.
I took so little, because of internet "medical" advise, that I
was hurting every four hours.

My 2nd and actual shrink, denied my Adderall request.
She thinks it will make me manic, even if she changed my diagnosis to bipolar 2.

I did away with my mood stabilizer, and became the person I was before.
Very aware and full of life. With a lot of desire for my "manic" ways.
I shop. I gamble. I take unnecessary risks.
I was missing that. For three long years in a deep depression.

I'd rather be me than an afraid zombie. Suffering minute after minute.
I don't blame the 'net "doctors". Nobody forced me to believe in them.
Or the shrinks.

The question is; were you happy the way you were without meds?.
I was. And I am again. Thanks to been prescrition meds free. Almost.
I take, forced by my wife, .5mg of clonazepan at night.

And three hydroxicuts during the day. Wonderful drug.
Plus a ton of Cuban coffee.

No more depression for me. I'd rather land in jail manic, than in a sanatorium depressed.
A matter of priorities.
But YOU are YOU. Not me.
Follow your heart.

Good luck.

Cheers.