hey it's gonna be ok these are tough times for u thats why u are experiencing panic attacks and thinking of her all the time and the probs between the 2 of u may be ur panic attack trigger my advice to u is get a hobby or something to get ur mind focused on so that ur busy for me it's playing online games like neopets it's a kids game mainly but it distracts me when i finish i feel so much more relaxed try it once u get ur health better then try and think about ur relationship but for now i think u should take care of ur self and remember when u feel anxious come to pc and post it we will respond and help u get through it ok also the chat room is always available even if no one is in it wait someone will notice and come in to chat have faith that all will get better pray ask god to send u his angels for protection that helps me alot and keep in touch with all of us here at pc btw welcome to pc

steph