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Old Jan 25, 2019, 09:06 AM
Madelaina Madelaina is offline
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Location: California
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Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky View Post
I'm so sorry you're struggling, Madelaina From what you wrote, it sounds like you're doing everything you can to get better. And that's great! I know things seem pretty bad right now, but trust me when I say that things can and will get better. Just take it one step at the time. Try to be patient. Depression is not easy. Try to hang on. Take baby steps. Stay safe and take care of yourself. I'd suggest to try to find some distractions. What do you like to do in your free time? I also agree with sarahsweets that crying is a good thing. Let it all out! I'm sure you'll feel better after it. Do you have any friends or family members that could support you at the moment? o you have any kind of support system IRL? Remember that we're here for you as well! Keep writing here if it helps. If it can help a bit... I'm here for you. I'll listen to what you have to say. I care about you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this
Thank you MickeyCheeny, very kind of you!
I really appreciate how kind and caring everyone posting here is.

I do have a support system. Well, i generally have a huge network and lots of friends, but I don't want everyone to know. I know this might not be the ideal way - maybe I should be more open..but for now, this is how I deal with it.
I do have incredible parents who help me through this. It makes me sad how I have to burden them with this and just thinking how loving and good they are to me makes me cry some more.
I also have one good friend who knows what's going on and she is also there for me - but lives in another country.

Right now, I wish someone would give me a massage and just hold me and tell me that I am ok and will be ok. (I tried to call some shiatsu places, but too short notice today..).

As for distractions: I know that's what you're supposed to do. But the thing is: if I knew what feels good and what I feel like doing, i would be doing it and wouldn't struggle with depression.

If a walk or watching a movie would make me feel good, I don't think I would consider myself depressed.

It makes me feel even more hopeless when I read all these strategies and people say what helps them (going for a walk, shopping, watching a comedy, sitting in a cafe.. etc) and I feel like "nope, not what I want to do right now".
Because then I feel like I am way worse off than "everyone."
I know this is silly, but yeah...it puts pressure on me if I have to constantly distract myself.

I go to work, and there were days where I could work a lot and stay long and it was ok. And then there are days where I can barely stand it and just need to go home to rest (and cry).

Like I said, maybe the many tears during the last week are a sign that more and more tension is released. Maybe it is part of healing.
I hope so!!

Again, thank you so much for reading this and replying!
Hugs from:
MickeyCheeky
Thanks for this!
MickeyCheeky