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Originally Posted by Dnester
I feel so crappy right now. I feel like I cant cope with one more diagnosis. Even though I know it has always been there. I feel like Im coming unhinged. The chatter is bad and Im telling it to shut up then I feel bad that I should nuture it. I have had some fleeting SI thoughts that I should just do it because somehow someone might find my trauma out now and I need to keep the chatter from telling. Whatever trauma that may be remembered. I finally get to talk to my daughter though. I dont want to ruin that but I feel myself spiraling. The whole reason I cant talk with my daughter is because I am hospitalized alot. My ex doesnt want to put my daughter through that. That is messed up. Maybe I can SH and that will be enough to help but it will have to be something major to help but not land me in the hospital.
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How old is your daughter?
As to a "new" diagnosis, when that has happened to me (and it has, many times), I use that as a tool to find out as much about it as I can, and then, going forward, assertively use that tool. For example, "I have V, so I can't do W, but I CAN and WILL do Y." Hope that helps.