As for the loneliness...

go to YouTube
search for 'guided meditations on loneliness'
so many wonderful choices...choose one which soothes you. It honestly really helps you.

ever tried volunteering? It can help you to safely connect with others and feel less lonely. Sometimes we think that the only path to reducing loneliness is finding an intimate partner. But there are lots of other ways we can connect with people and feel better.

Support group in your area? Is it possible you may be dealing with some depression?