You sound like you are in a bit of a fog. Looking back at your past thread titles, it doesn't appear to me you've had a healthy relationship with this therapist, and if some of your other threads are accurate in your description of her talking down and gaslighting you, this sounds, to me, like abuse. This does not sound like a client therapist relationship.


If you need in person reassurance from another therapist, definitely talk to one. Sometimes it takes hearing something a lot to accept it a little.