I'm so sorry, cryingontheinside Please don't be so hard on yourself. What do you usually do wrong in your opinion? I'm sure you're actually able to accomplish many things, but your depression doesn't let you see that and instead it makes you focus on the negative. You're kind and sweet and have encouraged many people here - you may have even saved someone else's life thanks to your supportive posts. That's a huge accomplishment! Plus, you're here and you're reaching out to us, even though you're struggling. That's quite an achievement. I'm so sorry you're feeling down, is there anything we can do to make you feel better? Do you have anyone IRL that you can reach out to? Please don't give up. I'd be quite devastated if you weren't around cheering up everyone here. And I'm sure many would be as well, both IRL and here at PC. I believe in you. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I hope writing here helps a bit. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you