I'm so sorry, cryingontheinside I'm glad you're still trying to be kind to yourself. You deserve it. Please don't give up. Things can and will get better. Stay strong. Try to hang on. Remember that we're here for you if you need us. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. Keep writing here if it helps. Feel free to PM me anytime. I'm always available if you need to talk. Sending many hugs to you