Ruby, it was mentioned somewhere on the thread that you may be living on the autism spectrum...is that correct? If so, you may be interested to read Hallahan's research on what he called the "
invisible curriculum" or the "
hidden curriculum."
That research pertains to exactly what you are dealing with in social transactions. Good luck and well done for self-monitoring and self-correcting

We all need to do that whether living on the spectrum or not. And we all get it wrong at times...just part of being human!
Plus, look how many people cared enough about you to reply to your thread. That's a good sign! You are connected!!