I am 22 years old and the only other relationship I’ve been in was a high school relationship that lasted around 6 months. Looking back at it now, I see all the flaws in both him and me as to why it was best that we broke up. It was all such a whirlwind of emotions that I had never felt for someone before (granted I don’t have much experience). To me, he almost seemed too good to be true until he wasn’t anymore, my best friend had to tell me that she sensed something off with him because she’d been in an abusive relationship before and didn’t like the way he treated me or my friends (including her). I need to move on, I totally know that. I’m just trying to make sense of it because for so long, I was convinced that I was the at fault for the downfall of our relationship. I don’t think of myself as a very important person and have always felt lesser than others. What I need to do is figure out who I am and what I am passionate about before ever trying to have a committed and real relationship with anyone. It’s just the fact that he made me feel like he was in love with everything about me in the beginning. I could do no wrong in his eyes. he made me feel so important to him. But then there was a voice in the back of my head that said “he knows nothing and it’s only a matter of time before he finds out how boring you are”. I know it starts with me, I just need to get on with finding out who I am and actually loving/knowing myself.