Hi Hope, thank you so much for the advice I am trying and doing everything I can to stay on some sort of track that can hopefully take me to my children and this is very hard, I am very emotional you see and may be the words stem from that, also being alone in my quest for happiness is also perhaps why I may sound like a poet but I am not, but thank you, I am just trying to express myself and I guess it helps me with you all supporting and I thank god again for having this medium to keep in touch with you my friends in this battle that we all have to face.

I do cry, movies that made me cry memories that make me cry, I do. Interstellar , About time , Shawshank redemption are one of the ones I see lately. But I have to find a good psychologist or therapist to work with me however is not that easy over here.
Will keep trying