Lately I've been wanting to quit therapy. I find that the more I go, the more negative I start to feel because I feel pressured to think about the past when all I want to do is not dwell on it. I can't say that my T is making me feel that way. I think it's just the natural result sometimes of going to therapy because you feel like you need to talk about everything. It puts me more in my own head, and I really don't want to talk about these things anymore. I just want to move on.

I find lately that the most valuable time to me is when I am at home (when I actually have the time), working on things that make me happier and spending time with my pets. But there is a weird sense of guilt about quitting. Like I owe my T something, or the T will be disappointed in me, or I am failing myself. I never cared when I quit with other Ts, but this one I actually liked and that's what's causing the reluctance to leave.

It would be good to get some feedback on this if you are going through it or have gone through it. Did you feel guilty or hesitant? Did you make yourself keep going? Did you just stop temporarily? This is the first time therapy has ever made me feel conflicted this way, and I worry it's simply because I often fall in the trap of wishing my T could be a friend.