I have also considered brainspotting and found someone who would do it but I would like to know more as well. My T knows I don't want to be in therapy forever. Although he is very goal oriented and won't let me just ramble on about what is bothering me that day and makes it quite clear that it is his ethical duty to refer me if I have not made any progress thoughout the year; when I confront him and push him to give me a time frame he always says more than five and less than ten. Since it has already been 2 years and we have barely broken the surface, I know this means more like 10. That really scares me. I am not getting any younger. It just seems so daunting and hopeless, but I do see now where my past traumas have controlled and ruined every aspect of my life so far and I need to make some changes if I want to experience any happiness before I die.