I'm trying to stay busy. I work a lot, I have trips planned, been watching tons of movies and doing art projects but there's still always times where I'm alone with my thoughts and it comes flooding back and my sadness hits me. This is way worse than losing my dog... probably partly because with him i had about 6 months to prepare but also, I knew he was gone forever.... with T, he's just cut me out. Knowing he's chosen others over me and is happy with others, that kills me. That's where the worthlessness kicks in. I can't bear it somedays. I've cried myself to sleep often. Idk what to do. I'm lost