I had started to do hypnosis with a therapist (related to trauma) but had to quit for logistical reasons. It seemed more like meditation to me.

Speaking of mediation, I've been doing guided medications from youtube; they have been really helpful in supporting changes in my thought patterns.

Here's one possibly for you:



Her voice/tone may seem annoying at first, but the way it plays out is really cool. It seems to have a way to strengthen your mental abilities to control your thoughts and overcome things. For example, in the meditation, all the sudden your mind has the ability to redirect the sun. I think the sound and strong visualization reinforces the thought patterns because it taps into other areas of the mind that merely talking doesn't reach.

And they are free.