I'm sorry you still struggling so much, I am aswell. I wish there was a way to just switch the care and sadness away but I don't think there is. keeping busy as others have said does help momentarily distract but still the sadness is always there.
As others have also said hypnosis seems to be a way of remembering more than forgetting, so I'm really not sure what the answer is to this. Time I suppose, but who knows. I feel as bad now as I did the day o said goodbye, and although it hasn't been long, the pain hasn't eased at all yet!
I have started with another T, she's nice enough, and it's a good place to talk about how hurt I am over all this but it's hasn't helped me with the longing to speak to my ex T (actually don't like saying that)