I've not talked about my past as far as being abused. But I'm Cofessiong about this now. . I was raped when I was 16 by my first boyfriend. 6 years ago I was molested by a family memeber. And have not talked about the molestation with anyone nor the rape. After the molestation with the cousin my then boyfriend was verbally abusing me due to him not knowing how worse my conditons was. I had gotten help like a year ago but never dicussed the rape or the molestation and the verbal abuse that was going on. I would had gone with the sucide because I dont think I have a reason to live anymore. The only thing that is keeping me standing is my husband and his support and his love other than that I be better off dead then to be alive.Sucide sometimes run in my mind but I dont think about it alot I have thoughts of it though. Thanks for listening anyone.