My sadness lessened and turned to anger for a couple of months, and now about 6 months later, i feel pretty calm and it doesn't pop in as much anymore. probably only my own toxic shame here and there over our weird dual relationship lingers more than anything. i once felt like i'd die without my therapist. now i don't even care. i never thought while i was going through the sadness that it would get better. but it did.

I watched a lot of TV as distractions. GLOW was great. and then The Haunting of Hill House was also good. dealt a lot with grief.