First I’m schizophrenic but I almost never see or hear bad things, witches gathering round my head,a boy busker singing eretheral music for hours,mermaids on the floor,sacred music coming out of cars,words appearing on the table that’s what I see.I dreamt several times that I was an amagqira (that’s a shaman in my tribe) I’m European and 1/4 African.But obviously Psychiatry holds an atheist worldview and rejects all spirituality, so I was diagnosed as schiz.

anyway back to the love story,I was taken to hospital years ago for the schiz and he was my nurse,he is a hippy guy with a man bun,musician etc full of vivacity and life,he works on the psyche ward in high dependancy.I truly faint everytime I see him I can’t really explain it.

Anyway I never had him as my nurse for years,then the last few years I’ve had to go there and he was my nurse a few times,we had long talks about everything ancestry,spirituality,goddesses everything and there was a definate electricity between us,he would talk to me for ages even when he wasn’t my nurse.now when I’m around him I feel this great creative energy like I become much more theatrical and creative.I am an artist and poet.We have some sort of ancient energy with each other.

sometimes I’ll be out of it there,reciting poems to him on my bed aloud,he’ll just sit there on the bed listening.Anyway he asked me to have lunch with him whilst on the ward and made a few other romantic comments to me,but as far as I understand nurses are in no way allowed to have relations with patients.But truly who could understand better what we go through,I don’t know what to do?