It was not just a pipe dream
That I kept pressing on for.
It was not that at all.
It was just like putting
The lottery on, if I never
Tried I would never know.
I spent my life holding back
And the hospital made
Me feel like I was not
Perks of a wall flowers.
I was fortunate to have
Received very good treatment
From my first in-patient stay
And the ensuing blips.
My family did come round.
And my boyfriend stayed.
My pals spoke to me
Even if there was some distance
But I always felt distant from them.
Home was not so bad
When you had been
At rock bottom.