So, I'm in a DBT therapy group, as probably many people have seen me post about over the past months. I have talked about how DBT helps me. It's true, it does. The past couple of times I was in group, I got triggered. I don't want to talk about the specifics. But last week, I (my nervous system) was so activated (stressed), and for what seemed like so long (on and off for days), that I was worried for my health.

I was considering leaving group, naturally. However I've made a pros and cons list. And there are good points to each thing. It may be something that just needs more time and I don't know yet what my decision will be.

My concern is that its going to take so much energy out of me (the stress from it), that I'm not going to feel like doing anything else. Thats kind of whats been going on since last week.

However, I was also able to get myself emotionally out of the stress this weekend (yesterday), and every week in group is different, and people (the facilitators and some of the group members) are nice and supportive, they have my back, and I just wonder if it might be in my best interest to stay for now, despite a part of me wanting to leave. It wasn't what I was expecting (the pain from group, the triggering, the activation, but also the idea that I may be able to learn from this if I can emotionally deal). Last week I could not emotionally deal. But the pain did go down.

I'm just wondering what people think.

In meditation group, last week, I talked about it, and someone said "maybe it comes down to capacity. maybe you cannot deal right now. maybe you need something smaller to deal with first." This felt true last week. I was hurting so much. But now I'm seeing things from a different light now that I am feeling a bit calmer.