Lol even my best friend . We don't do emotions. We don't discuss deeply personal things. We still manage to have fun and make memories without being close.

Keeping people distant is very easy for me. I think it is a choice to a point. I knew instantly when I began to feel attached, I had a choice to face it or run and I made the wrong choice by sticking around. None the less.... had I ran, I'd for sure have gone through some grief but nothing like I am now.

I love T so much but honestly, if I could relive things and never have met him at all, I'd so pick that. Having him in my life for that short of time was not worth the hell I get to deal with without him.