Alright so I got the ball rolling on therapy again, I’m underemployed right now so I’m a little worried about where the money is going to come from, but I do have health insurance that should kick in on the 1st which I might be able apply to it.. I don’t know about autism or antisocial personality, I’m probably just shopping around for a diagnosis which is always dangerous. Although just weird isn’t really in the DSM it may be the most fitting. I am prone to existential crises for sure, afraid that my life to this point has been and will be meaningless. Are depressives more prone to such worries, or is it that such existential angst can trigger depression. Chicken and the egg perhaps?