I understand this so very much. I never use to think of my self as over the hill, but now I am working on going down the other side. Women in my family have a history of passing before they get to 70, and I have several medical problems to go along with the MI, wrinkles, age spots, height shrinkage, weight loss, ect. A lot of times my body feels like a little old lady, but my mind still sees me running on the beach. I have also been in a bad mental place for several weeks to a couple months. And the weather hasn't helped!!! LOL. I haven't been on much for awhile bc I haven't been a positive person for awhile, but I wish for you Thirty shades, Miss Fuzzy, Little Turtle, and everyone else on the bus to know you all have been in my thoughts. And I feel guilty when I can't bring my self to get on bc of my negativity. And I don't want people to feel that from me.