I'm so sorry, Sisabel I know how you feel. I think you're handling all of this pretty well. I'm glad you've decided to start counseling again. I hope you'll be able to find a good counselor soon. Please don't give up. I agree with you about staying away from Facebook and social media in general, if you can. Social media can make us feel even more lonelier than we already feel. Try to avoid it if you can. I think it's great that you're trying to meet new people! I'm sorry you haven't had much luck so far. Please don't give up. Hopefully you'll be able to meet someone who will listen to you and understand you. In the meantime, you have us. I know it's not the same thing as having a support system IRL, but at least it's something. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Keep writing here if it helps. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you