My T's updated VM message says that she is willing to do phone sessions. But I'm still on the fence as to whether I want one, or not.

I have no privacy in my office; we, with the exception of one person, are in cubicles, with no doors. So I wouldn't want to do a phone session here at work. But work is where I am, 8+ hours of the day.

I've done phone sessions with T before, but not under the same circumstances; some of you know that she's been on medical leave since 11/14/2018. I haven't seen her since 11/7/2018, and she doesn't have a "go back to work" date, yet.

The thought of doing a phone session--anywhere--with T scares me, because I'll want more than just a conversation. If I want to hear her voice, I can just call her VM, listen, and hang up. She knows that I do this occasionally.

Yet, if I keep on the way I'm going, I'm also afraid that I will just keep sliding into The Pit, with rare instances of plateau. I haven't felt "well" for a long stretch of time, since, maybe, last spring? Just before she told me her Dx?

I see my Pdoc this week, but, as I've said before, I don't want to see him for psychotherapy. I know he is a good doctor, but I don't feel the warm connection that I do with T, and I don't want to. I just want T.

Help, please.