Sisabel--Sorry you are feeling so down.

I am sorry about your insurance but having gone to therapy, have come to believe that counseling only helps so much. I think people get depressed because of trauma, unmet needs, cognitive dissonance--that kind of thing. A therapist can help you sort out feelings about past trauma then once you do that, I feel like they can't really "fix" anything--though they can listen if there is no one else to or if you are in the middle of a traumatic event, therapy is also good for that too.

But if you know what is wrong and can't seem to change it--therapy is downright depressing! This is where I am at right now in my life. I have no desire to be a broken record anymore.

I stay of FB and come to PC much less. My family is broken. I don't even want to talk about it anymore. I am embarrassed and am not trying to work much other than the minimum at my part time job and my upcoming Spring remote job scoring (no interaction with people). One of my depressants is emotional novocaine (as Still Crazy aptly describes it) and the other one gives me just enough of a boost to do what must be done. Yes, for now I have given up and am just accepting things as they are. We are all part of the same club!!