Thanks, I didn't think that comment was not being believed but the shock you refer to, exactly. What I was sensing more was just a feeling of silent non-belief elsewhere that wasn't being expressed, not here, though it has been quite directed elsewhere.

Some people say reach out and then when they hear part of the story that reached their limit they then stop believing and blame me, say I'm delusional, or just go silent. This is my experience overall most of my life and especially during this when I am much more clear-headed yet that means I see what happened for real and when I express it I find out that it's too much and rather risky for me to do.

I have no choice but to take on the just world problem since it what blames victims.


If I go silent I will simply not survive. If I speak out too much I also will not survive. I have to find a balance somewhere until I have more support and people who back me up and credibility restored. This is not easy to do in the most ideal circumstances, but I have to.