You're not a failure, Background Noise You're here and you're reaching out to us. That takes a lot of strength. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Avoid negative self-talk as much as you can. I agree with skiguy18 about setting some goals in your life. What would you like to do right now if you've had all the time and money in the world? And how can you achieve it? After you've decided that, try to divide it into several smaller goals. I hope it will work out for you. I also agree with HopefullyLost1211. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could find new ways to improve your self-esteem. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you