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I go into freeze response. I jut stop communicating, moving, I stare a lot, i get a slight headache/pressure above my right eye, I feel heavy, I feel as if I can just lay down and never move again. This is when he starts throwing a tennis ball at me. This just happened yesterday and has not happened in a while. When I come out of it I am cold, shakey but sweating and then exhausted and foggy for hours after.
I did reflect on it because there seemed no damn reason for that to even happen. I think I understand the trigger on this one.....maybe. I did email him with my thoughts on why it happened.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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