well.. thats true, i cant read his mind either

he was very talkative, and was very much in his groove... he was better able to have a conversation with me in the manner he works... i was grasping what he said better, and giving him decent feedback. His overt rxns to my answers seemed very positive.

ive just never seen him quite that way...

i mean, i know he likes me and he is good with me, we laugh a lot, even in the bad times... he doesn't hate seeing me i dont think... but i dunno... now there is a comparison.. a precedent.

i worry about something else too... that he is going to think that is what i should shoot for... and think maybe i can *be* that person

but i'm not that person. im just me. plain old boring me.

maybe i am not trusting him? hmm... wait.. i need to think.. maybe this is a trust issue??