I'm so sorry, ExplodingSun56 Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. I know things seem pretty hard right now, but just know that they don't have to stay that way. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Just remember that we do care about you here. You're not alone in this. I know it's not the same thing as having a support system IRL, but at least it's something. We all love you here. Keep writing here if it helps. I'm here for you as well. Contact me if you need to talk about something. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you