When I have them in session, usually I don't mix up the present and the past. So I still know my T is my T and I find it calming to have him around. He usually talks to me in a soft voice, asks me whether I'm having a flashback and if I want to we can discuss what I'm experiencing. I'm not usually scared of my T during them, or angry at him or something like that. I do find that I have some more general fears that come from trauma which I do reenact with my T, for example I've had a bunch of abandonment trauma in my childhood and with my T I'm constantly scared he might leave. But if anything you could say those things are emotional flashbacks. I don't experience the more classical flashback symptoms like visuals during these times.

It really helps me to have somebody to share the experience with, so if anything I'd say my relationship with my T is stronger due to it. I've also found that when I have difficulties with flashbacks at home, often I'll hear my T's voice instructing me on how to calm down during them like he would in a session. I find that really helps me.