You're NOT an annoying pest, qwerty68! In fact, I think you're quite a wonderful person. I'm sure everyone on PC agrees with this. Try to avoid negative self-talk if you can. Every time it happens, try to find some distraction. What do you like to do in your free time? I'm so sorry, please don't give up. Remember that we all love you here. You won't be judged here. I'm here for you as well. Feel free to PM me anytime. I'm always available if you need to talk. Sending many hugs to you