Hi Background Noise,

I am so sorry that you are struggling so much. I echo everything that MickeyCheeky said earlier. You are NOT a failure and your life is "not a stop". It's not just saying that either.

A couple of years ago I remember going through the same phase you are, after losing an intern and being walked on by the world. I was resentful of even those I loved the most. I still get pretty irritated by others, but after almost 2 years of counseling I have been able to identify toxic relationships and strive to keep them out of my life. This includes those quick to brag about their romance, career, etc. I have left Facebook and limited social media use for the exact same reason, so you have done the right thing in this area. All of this is a crucial step in defeating this nasty spiral called comparison.

Why am I saying this? Everyone is a unique collection of personality traits, gifts, and talents, and you are no exception. Maybe reconsidering your hobbies and passions and pursuing those to the best of your abilities can acknowledge your uniqueness, and remind you that you are not just another person.

Like I said, I'm still in the process of discovering who I am, and don't have all the answers, but I hope you bear in mind through this stage in life that you are your own unique person, and that you are valued here on PC.