LT maybe I misunderstand but if you see T tomorrow or Thursday then maybe the contents of the email could have waited? It seems as though you might be testing Ts willingness to be there. I also wonder if him replying and not charging you is a good thing? It just sets up this dynamic between you that doesnt keep clear boundaries and one day if he decides it is too much and communicates that you may be hurt. I know his rule about over 15 mins etc, it appears like email frequency is on the rise and hope he does not hurt you if he feels like he is putting in energy with no reward(ie payment) Anytime a T blurs the boundaries by meeting our needs it can make things tough eventually.

I get what H was saying. Like hes right there but not enough. That must have been difficult to hear. Fixation on one person as "everything" can be very hard for a partner to watch. I did it to my OH when ex t 1 was around and will never ever do it again. OH always responds, is consistantly there and meets my needs. I will not allow a fixation to change that.

What I meant by being "free" in your other thread is not because I think T is doing anything wrong but that maybe it would be nice to free up some head space. I dont know what goes on for you obviously but I know a fixation can be consuming for some. It is also liberating to do things for yourself that dont involve the other person. I dont think you need to see someone or even 'fall apart' to prove you need T. Going is your choice and he wont stop his care based on how much you need him. You seem to be working well together but that is up to you.

I hope I haven't overstepped. I wish you well Lt