I decided to take a year off of school for mental health reasons. But I’m starting to think maybe that was a mistake because I’m mentally unstable my family doesn’t make it any better because they’re ignorant when it comes to mental health. And no one is supporting me and I’m trying to be independent and support myself but it’s hard. I want a job that pays 15 an hr at least with 40 hrs a week. Maybe I’m reaching too high but that’s what i want. I am Christian and I have been praying but it seems like God isn’t even hearing my prayers and I’m tempted to give up. I’m a failure I used to have big dreams and goals but it’s like ppl will hurt you and destroy your dreams. I’m only 23 but I feel like my life is over and I’d be better off dead. I’m highly suicidal and I don’t want to live anymore.