At the time, I didn't feel what I'd hoped. I wasn't sure what I was feeling. There was lots of confusion then. Now, I feel good about it. Sheepishly proud of myself.

Not filtering myself is one of the things we are working on. This one is something that has been talked about many times. The desire to do it, the why the desire is there, the number of times I've wanted to do it.... ect. What I want from T when I do it, the fact that I can do it and T would be ok with it... the risk was low, yet it has taken me I'd say close to the 6 months mark (probably more) to actually do it.

She was her usual accepting self and responded with a warm, "I know". Which for those that don't remember, that is our worked out acceptable response.