I noticed in DBT group the other night I am starting to have really strong jealousy for my T’s other clients. Mostly, I just notice that she seems to call on them more to talk (I am pretty shy anyway), and she just seems so much more interested in what they have to say. Like when they say stuff, she responds and there is a dialogue. When I say something, she just moves on to the next person. Idk if my observations are reality or not because they may just be my own insecurities. This is one of the MANY reasons I am afraid of bringing this up with her. Also, a similar dynamic happened with last T and I never want that to happen again... However, this is really triggering for me. At the same time, maybe it’s better I don’t feel special to her right from the get go because feeling special to my T screwed me over in the past. Another thing that was hard is she had a client from group lead an activity, which made it seem like they were buddies and/or colleagues. Through the rest of the group, the client was doing a lot of “teaching” and I guess I just felt like they were better than me in some way and I felt jealous because my T probs think is so amazing and proud of her that she asked her to lead the activity. If I’m overreacting or being overly sensitive please tell me. I want to talk to my T about this but I’m also scared out of my mind to talk to her about it.